i was grounded for a month :/
good news on that is i've lost weight,
not as much as i've wanted,
but i'm being hopeful (:


People are disgusting,

I am disgusting.

Why is it that you can't turn on a television or radio without there being an advertisment for food?
GOD ITS SO DISGUSTING. People are obviously going to eat your nasty greasy burger without you puting an ad saying how good it is............. I fucking hate burgers. Those fucking advertisments make me sick to my stomach, but in other words; my diet is still going well(: i've lose over ten pounds.

Writer's Block: When I Was Young
What do you miss most about being a kid?
I miss when I was young and my world was only a block wide and I had no worries...

good news: my diet is going quite wonderful.
bad news: I'm in a horrible mood because my ex boyfriend (broke up with me) is being a complete DICK. oh yeah i sure do believe him when he says he still loves me. mhm. GOD HE'S SUCH AN ASSHOLE.

I'm moving on.
I'm starting to move on. It's so hard to walk away from your first love, your first everything. I haven't cried today and I feel strong. My diet is going wonderful. I think I'll be okay. I think I'm ready to flirt, find a rebound, and move on.

My last day of highschool.
you'd think i'd be excited, but i'm not at all. i feel awful. good thing my diet is going extremelly well (: i just have no idea what to do anymore, i'm not even all that excited about that... this boy has my heart, and hes killing me. i've never had my heartbroken before, but i fear i will very soon. not to mention something else is going on as well... gah.

worst week
i've cried myself to sleep everyday since saturday.
yay me ):

its friday.
I ate a little today, but I think I had to. I hadn't eaten anything at all in two days and I was starting to feel really sick. My temp went up to 104 yesterday, but after taking motrin it went down and I feel better. I had a yogurt today and one bullion cube so I had around 80 or so calories. I cried when I ate the yogurt hoping it would make me sick, but somehow my stomach was able to handle it, although it did upset it pretty bad. So I guess that wasn't so horrible...but I still wish I hadn't eaten anything. I was able to pass down chips and a veggie burger...usually i would just eat it and binge so I guess I can be proud of that...

I found this.

I AM -
[ x] anorexic but i have bulimic "episodes"
[] ednos
[ ] bulimic
[ ] living off diet pills
[x] hungry
[ ] drinking something
[ ] Under 100lbs
[x] wanting to be "under-100-by end of june"
[x] starving yourself
[x] participating in a fast with other people

[ ]ask if i'm anorexic/bulimic
[x] call me fat
[ ] say i'm too skinny
[ ] say i'm ugly
[x] say i'm pretty
[x] spread rumors about me
[ ] force me to eat
[ ] say i eat too much
[ ] wish i'd stop
[x] don't know I'm anorexic/bulimic

[x] i was THIN
[x] i had a better body
[x] i didn't have to eat
[x] i could control myself
[X] i was under 100lbs
[x] i could avoid food
[x] i could hide what i am
[x] i wasn't fat
[x] i was pretty
[ ] i could stop

[x] feeling hungry
[x] shaking
[x] being weak, becuase i know i'm losing weight
[x] losing weight
[x] being anorexic/bulimic
[x] green tea
[x] diet soda
[] coffee
[x] laxatives
[x] diet pills
[x] being able to turn down food
[x] feeling good about myself



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